Videos

My heart is so heavy, despite my resolve to be and discover from earlier today.  Perhaps because I'm experiencing sonder.  According to the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows:

sonder

n. the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own—populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness—an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of other lives that you’ll never know existed, in which you might appear only once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk.

Also, this video speaks volumes to me today:

I just random clicked on a video for the word avenoir.  And I'm all choked up because "You'd remember what home feels like and want to move there for good." 

Damnit.  Every time I think I get a taste of what home feels like, it's gone away.  And nothing gold can stay, says Frost.  But maybe Frost is a prick and damnit, gold can stay if you have the balls to hang on to it.  Or just throw it away.

Man, I'm feeling too many feels right now.